a monologue of dichotomy

"happy sad, are you feeling good or feeling bad?" the song goes from Pizzicato 5.


i am feeling good. getting maximum scores and wonderful comments for my clinical presentation from university today. but thats the icing on the cake. the real cake was getting it from authors of books and journals i read for my research.(i didnt know miss.d is still a young fellow of research,haha, im reading her work and i imagine a gray-haired woman ). i heard a hint to apply for a summer research placement. i would love to, but i love patient care more than research. maybe in two years time,who knows.

sad. the news. the news. the news.


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i came home feeling unwell. jolting pain on my right side. i came home, stayed online(hello FB) for a few minutes, then slept on the couch for almost an hour, and here i am blogging just before i have my dinner. how routinary life could get. i thank these routines, they feel like little pockets of security for me when i feel too tired from my day coupled with feeling unwell.

i woke up feeling refreshed and much better. sniffy, but better.

adrian placed some warm water bottle on my side to make me feel comfy. but nothing beats having a warm weight of a human being breathing beside you, stroking your hair while you fall in and out of nap, while he watches the news.

lifelines, we all need them, don't we? thank God for Adrian, my bestfriend K, and my wonderful girlfriends and my family.


wonderful monday night, i promise you, pain on my right side, aside.