Saturday, 5 February 2011

a sickness

i have a condition. its called "fatorexia" (not a real scientific name of an illness).

you, see, i do know im overweight. i do! but for some weird reason, i do not see it, the way other people probably see me.

i look in the mirror, and i see a 'slightly' overweight person that needs slimming down. but i don't realise the extent of it until i see photos of myself beside my 'lovely' husband.

today, i was browsing through pics from india. and wow! it reminded me again, of how big i was/still am. and not only 'big, big" but the same size 'big' as my caucasian ex-rugby player of a husband.


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my "magpaka totoo ka, sister" moments are in these candid photos.




look at my calves, and his calves...faets! parehas na! in fact, mines bigger! (this was taken in one of our temple visits)



my back vs. his back...love all. patas ra! (equal measures!)..(in a rooftop resto overlooking the keralan river)



my thickness and his thickness...we're there!




on top of the statue in Tamil Nadu..(the cankles, the cankles,the cankles)..



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they said, when you marry someone, you will end up looking similar to them..




but they didnt say, you'd end up being their size..

so single ladies, marry someone, gwapo (check), and marry someone lean (needs work on this one) :-)


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but regardless, marry someone you love with all your might..someone who you would end up being giddy about, and be happy being with, pot belly, cankles and all.

Advance Happy Valentines, my love ones.


12 comments:

Anonymous said...

Ay naku pareho na lang tayo ng problema. I should buy a new winter coat because none would fit me anymore and I am thinking I only got two winters to use them. I wish I could just shrink myself so I could fit in what I have now but that would take a miracle. Avoiding starch during school days is not enough because when I come home in the evening, I miss the rice so much that I make up for what I didn't have at noon. Need some drastic measures to lose weight but how? I want one without pain.

kookooforcocopuffs said...

Ay naku pareho na lang tayo ng problema. I should buy a new winter coat because none would fit me anymore and I am thinking I only got two winters to use them. I wish I could just shrink myself so I could fit in what I have now but that would take a miracle. Avoiding starch during school days is not enough because when I come home in the evening, I miss the rice so much that I make up for what I didn't have at noon. Need some drastic measures to lose weight but how? I want one without pain.

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I think ate Lou, its always like that, kung ano ang masarap, yan ang bawal (sorry my tagalog is not good,haha)..rice is a killer..if we avoid it, we tend to overcompensate..and true enough,this post didnt give me the motivation i hoped for..im still too unmotivated to diet and exercise..Good luck to the both of us,Ate:-)xxx

konsuy said...

i guess this makes three of us. =) let us just say we are big boned. hehehe

we now have a 2nd weighing scale only to prove that the 1st one did work.

Aileen said...

But you are beautiful, Chel (matter and substance). All I want for you is to be healthy. And let me just say that you (and A) are two of the few MOST extraordinary people I know. :)

kookooforcocopuffs said...

i guess this makes three of us. =) let us just say we are big boned. hehehe

we now have a 2nd weighing scale only to prove that the 1st one did work.


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big boned sisters!! hahaha, or denial sisters nata ani chi,lol..

i almost fell off my chair reading about why u have a second weighing scale..:-) thanks chichi for making me laugh:-)

kookooforcocopuffs said...

But you are beautiful, Chel (matter and substance). All I want for you is to be healthy. And let me just say that you (and A) are two of the few MOST extraordinary people I know. :)

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thats such a beautiful and generous thing anyone has said to me about me and my frame,Ai (about being beautiful in matter and substance,and me being healthy)..i will keep that in my mind framed forever in my moments of doubt..super thank you..

thanks too, for thinking adrian and i are extraordinary..i think its true, we see people the way we are..you saw us as extraordinary,because you are..thanks for your inspiration:-)

Delectable Dee said...

I look and I look and even stare and think to myself, "She doesn't look THAT big!" Then of course, there's also the nagging voice in my head saying, "Bet she'll shrink next to you."

I honestly don't find you that big looking. Yes, you're fat but you look good, nonetheless. You don't have the flabs and lose skin, and most of all, you do NOT look like a walking jelly (you know, the kind that looks like everything else wiggles with every little move).

I know I haven't met you yet in person but when I do, that wouldn't change how I see you, beautiful and awesome beyond shallow dress sizes.

Be healthy (yes, it's still possible to be healthy and fat at the same time) and happy always! :)


(p.s. pwede ko apil sa big boned sisters? LOL)

Dee said...

your highness.. as long as happy, healthy and loved.. everything else is just bonus :) and you are all three! And to add to that beautiful and smart.

And oh boy lami kaau ikaon together with the mister right? For me, this is the main reason why layo na ko sa akong "single weight".. lol.

kookooforcocopuffs said...

I look and I look and even stare and think to myself, "She doesn't look THAT big!" Then of course, there's also the nagging voice in my head saying, "Bet she'll shrink next to you."

I honestly don't find you that big looking. Yes, you're fat but you look good, nonetheless. You don't have the flabs and lose skin, and most of all, you do NOT look like a walking jelly (you know, the kind that looks like everything else wiggles with every little move).

I know I haven't met you yet in person but when I do, that wouldn't change how I see you, beautiful and awesome beyond shallow dress sizes.

Be healthy (yes, it's still possible to be healthy and fat at the same time) and happy always! :)


(p.s. pwede ko apil sa big boned sisters? LOL)

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hello awesome, beautiful Dee..you know, you are someone i look up to when it comes to embracing voluptuousness. the vavavoom kind.

thank you for the beautful words of comfort and affirmation..you made me feel ashamed for ever feeling low about my size..thank you, Dee.

of course, you are one of us theBig Boned Gang:-)

kookooforcocopuffs said...

your highness.. as long as happy, healthy and loved.. everything else is just bonus :) and you are all three! And to add to that beautiful and smart.

And oh boy lami kaau ikaon together with the mister right? For me, this is the main reason why layo na ko sa akong "single weight".. lol.

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hello,Deedeekins.i think, i am loved, and yes, happy, but im afraid, healthy is quite questionable there,haha. that should be sorted soon.

i totally agree, our hubbies are the main culprits why we eat the way we do..(we shall blame them coz they cant say anything on this case,haha)..but you Dee, you are just right the way you are, do not change..xxx

tonybonita said...

awww.... im inspired! :)

kookooforcocopuffs said...

awww.... im inspired! :

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thanks,Ton..pangita gyud ug lean and guwapo ton,hehehe..